Since finding out about this surgery, I feel like I can breathe. When I found out about this condition, I was incredibly depressive and felt dark and hopeless because it’s incurable. I don’t have expectations for the surgery but knowing that there are options out there is immensely helpful. I’m able to access them, and my gratitude is endless.
Recently I’ve been going through, as we all do, so many ups and downs. Life can be daunting sometimes, and the weight of the world hangs on you when you realize certain things, like when I realized that this condition is with me. I have been feeling free, happy, grateful and excited. Excited for my future, that’s where I’m at, which is fun.
I have only learned the most in my adversity. Everything traumatic in my life has brought so much growth, learning, and positivity. Especially with this condition, I see myself one day able to help people who have my condition. In other ways too, with anyone who’s in chronic pain or, whatever it may be. I feel I have a purpose to serve and to help others.
Yesterday, I sat on this bench outside and watched the clouds. I didn’t take my eyes off the clouds for a full half an hour while listening to my favorite album. I watched those clouds change, and it made me think so deeply about how change is the most constant and inevitable thing in life. Watching clouds is a symbol for life in how things are moving, flowing, changing, growing. You can see how it unfolds and not attach yourself to it, and try not to control it. It’s natural. It’s beautiful.
